It’s time. I miss it! I miss writing. My writing definitely comes through in waves and phases and sometimes it’s a lot of words and a lot of articles and other times I put the “pen” down for a while and live spontaneously.

Today is Thursday and that means it’s time to write. Time to reflect and be with God and sing and play guitar. I’ll walk and pray and nap and gather my thoughts.

Hope and pray and plan. Lots of prayer. Lots of bringing myself before Him in His presence.

Mmm. The sunlight is coming through the trees out there and all the flowers and trees and birds and frogs and butterflies are yawning and starting to stir. They’re making preparations for the day and for the rest of the week and starting the daily grind.

How beautiful is His creation.

Lord God, Your art is … Unfathomable. How intricate, how delicate. How unique and mesmerizing. What life, what beauty.

Lord your power is endless.

Your abilities are limitless.

Your timing is perfect.

Your creatures are marvelous.

Every creature breathing and moving and working and preparing and searching and finding. Gaining and achieving. Growing and pruning and conforming and transforming.

Your breath in the lungs of every creature.

Your spirit in the beat of every heart.

Your fingerprint on the top of every head, on the bottom of every foot, on every rock and tree and body of water and mountain top.

Your hand guiding every breeze, controlling every drop of rain, orchestrating every natural process to work together as part of your plan. To change the world. To point to Yourself.

O Gracious God, what praise you deserve!!!! How great and holy you are. Amazing are your works; I know that full well, only by looking at your creation.

Go outside people. Even if you live in the city. Find beauty in a hanging plant, or a blade of grass. We can grow things but we can’t create them from nothing.

Even if you live in the country and you’ve stared across the same road 1,000 times. Go outside and look again, and see God’s hand. Find His mercy in the shade of the trees on a hot summer day. How perfectly He designed them to bow out in a beautiful arc of glory and provide fruit, shade, refuge.

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“You’re not a tree” a lady said to me yesterday, as I thanked her for telling her story of her and her family moving all over the globe for her husband’s job in the air force. I told her I didn’t want to necessarily root myself down and feel inclined to stay in one place. She said I didn’t have to.

“You’re not a tree.”

K I’m just gonna post this. More later. <3

xxx

V

Again. I’m up this late most nights now. I rely on naps to keep me going through the day. I don’t always get them. So I have more coffee instead. And then my body wonders were that extra caffeine is on the days that I don’t have extra coffee or naps.

I work tomorrow from 9-6, and then again from 8-10. The question is…. (drum roll please) …

to dance or not to dance

seems like an easy decision: dance!

But I wouldn’t get to the place until 10:45pm. And I would stay until … 1:30? Wouldn’t get home til ~2:30.

I would need to wind down when I got home too. So I would probably be in bed by 3. And then I start work Saturday at 9:00am.

Hmm.

If I don’t go dancing, I will work 8-10ish. Not rushed. Then go home. 10:30. Maybe film a video. Or just go to bed by 11. Catch up on a bit of sleep.

Have a longer quiet time in the morning before work.

I’ll let y’all know what I do. Now I gotta get to bed before I eat half a jar of peanut butter. Haha the struggle is real.

Also, check out my latest video: https://youtu.be/JrS5kVgMMdk 

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V

happy vernal equinox!

today is the first day of spring. today is the beginning of a new season. today is a new opportunity to shed light on the things that God wants me to do.

prioritizing.

focusing.

living intentionally.

i have had things on my mind for quite some time:

-writing my book

-producing videos

-working on more music

three things which I often put to the back burner. i do make time for blogging, but that’s about the extent of my writing these days. i have let distractions take over (such as cute men) and have to make a decision:

am i going to pursue dating and relationships, or am i going to pursue using my gifts and talents in my creative endeavors? both are very time consuming. but if i make a conscious decision about which one im going to pursue, i will have more focus.

and what about punctuation and capital letters

maybe i should start being less lazy in my typing

tho sometimes when i’m writing poetry i think the lack of proper punctuation adds something to the text

though in general, perhaps it’s better to use punctuation

in this era of rapid messaging i definitely let my proper punctuation slip to the wayside. it takes too long

it’s a little unnecessary

people understand what you’re saying

but perhaps i’ll try

anyway.

HOW TO LIVE MORE INTENTIONALLY

I think I should at least give focusing on my creativity a try at any rate. Haven’t done a lot lately, yet still complain that I “wish” I could.

Funny since the only person stopping me from succeeding is MYSELF.

Mmk, wake-up call.

I’m going to go film a video now.

Ps. Check out my YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/user/skizarefun09

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V

is it really though

“mid” night

usually middle of the night is like 3 a.m.

weird cuz we sprung all the clocks forward

i like how my electronics will do that for me

and it doesn’t exactly feel like 12

since my body thinks it’s 11

why the time change, oh why

time to switch things up i guess

always a good thing to do

keep everyone on their toes

idk

maybe it’s not such a good thing

guys I’m freakin’ exhausted

I’ve been snacking like a bear before hibernation

why? you ask

same reason i ate half a dozen cookies five years ago right before going to a potluck and when my friend asked me if i was hungry i said “no” because i had eaten six rather large cookies and she said “why” and i said “i dont know, cuz they’re tasty” but really it’s lack of self control

good news is

Jesus rose from the dead

also

i have a lot more self control now

hahaha

yo for real though. fo reals

self control, like patience, is something that we grow in as christians.

just like all the other fruits/AKA results of the Holy Spirit indwelling believers.

we grow in love

we grow in peace

we grow in joy

we grow in faithfulness

we grow in gentleness

we grow in kindness

we grow in goodness

we grow in patience

we grow in… self control

praising Him for growing me in all nine of these areas slowly but surely day after day

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my boss told me about an old friend that he once had who trained squirrels to eat snacks out of his hand

HAHAHAHA LMBO

I just died laughing actually. cuz that sentence is a tad bit funny 😛

anyway, my boss said “i could never be a squirrel trainer cuz I don’t have the patience for that”

and i was like yoooo so many things are jacked up about that sentence

hahaha

but i responded “patience is something we are hopefully growing in, so i’m sure you could train squirrels eventually if you really wanted to”

lol 🙂

he didn’t seem like he had considered that

he was trying to own the persona of “i’m an impatient person”

ladies and gents, let’s not let this be an excuse for acting out or acting up. taking anger out on other people. if you’re a Christian.

and even if you are not a christian, realize that our patience is tested so that we will become more patient. God wants us to grow more like Christ and live the best possible life that He designed for us including loving other people properly by being patient with them!!!! i know it’s not easy sometimes, but it’s always worth it

be patient, be kind, be loving all the time

hard, i know.

easy? to preach. to speak. to advise others.

just remember, never pray for patience. God will answer that prayer 😀 😀 hahaha 😉 ;P 😛

only joking.

ask for it

it’s a great way to live

okay

I really must go to bed

I got distracted cuz I totes just won a contest on facebook!!! hoorrrrrrrrrrrrayyyyyy I won a free bachata t-shirt and 2 free entries into 2 upcoming dancing events! I am pumped. yusssss

all because I advertised for my frands dance company…. they are the bomb. such good people. and I’m so glad I was motivated to advertise for them and tag a bunch of peoples who have never been dancing! heck yea!

sooooo

on that note

I was gonna tell another side story but what was it…

OH YEAH

it was about an empty cup… and the sound that is made when you drop things into the empty cup. this is a word, so hang tight for a mo

when you drop things that are not of substance into the cup, the cup will never be filled up and the same hollow sound will be made continually as you drop things in the cup. but if you fill the cup up with long-lasting things/ things of substance, the cup will begin to fill up and the sound will be less hollow.

life application: if you are a cup, what are you filling your cup with? things of substance? or things that leave you feeling hollow.

NEWFLASH: fill your life with the Truth of Christ by building a relationship with the God of the bible. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

“Seek first the kingdom, and His righteousness, and all these things will be added”. Matthew 6:33

Seek God, and He will bring substance. He will bring meaning. He will bring satisfaction.

Oh Gosh. 12:42

NITE

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xxx

V