So I wanted to write again today. Here we are.

Sunday night. 6:49.  I have work at 9. I think I’ll take a walk soon. I have some adrenaline because of hiking and dancing last night. I think walking will help clear my head. It’s nice living in this neighborhood with lots of streetlights … and it’s only one way in and one way out so it feels safe. Not to mention its’ general ritziness. Or is it ritzyness… haha oh well


Yeah walking didn’t happen. It’s now 11:17pm and I got home from work a couple minutes ago. I’m not sad about walking though because I ended up playing guitar and singing and working on writing a song instead. <3 So that was lovely <3

Ears are still ringing from this morning. So it’s been almost 24 hours of tinnitus. Hmmmm hopefully this isn’t anything to be concerned about. I do know one thing though. I refuse to Google my condition. hahah

Mmmmkay going to bed now. Can’t think of anything to write or focus. Ha




tinnitus & hiking

wondering when the tinnitus will go away!

It kinda sounds like a mini fire alarm is going off in both my ears on a low level. That’s what happens when you go to night clubs


Last night I went to a friend’s birthday party and we all met at a spot and DANCED. It was a good time 😀 I saw many faces I knew and quite a few that I didn’t know. Got to dance with many fun dancers that I see around often, and also danced with some new people which is always a blast!

At one point I saw my most recent dance crush across the room and smiled and waved when he smiled at me. I danced several songs in a row with friends (songs that aren’t partner dances) and then my friend came up to me and expressed his desire to head out soon (we had carpooled). I told him I really wanted to dance with ***** (dance crush).

At that moment, my crush walked across the room through the crowd and asked me to dance salsa. <3 <3 <3

aaaaaaaaaaahhh just wanna take a moment to say how much I love coffee. <3 SO GOOD. In the morning. Sitting by the window. Writing to y’all. Bout to do some bible study as well. Yup, life is good 🙂

So. Back to the dance crush.

He’s a very talented salsero. In fact, he came to this area not too long ago and is very involved with the salsa community teaching classes and leading dance teams. I was hoping to have a really satisfying salsa dancing experience with him but realistically it was too crowded. We ended up dancing sortof…. mini salsa hahah. But it was still fun! And I was flattered that he came across the room and asked me 😀


And then there was the physics professor. We danced 2 salsa songs and 1 merengue back-to-back-to-back. I told him I had to go and he asked if he could get my number. I said “depends”. He said “on what?”. I said “if you love Jesus.”

Then we proceeded to have a chat on the dance floor about Jesus and agnosticism (he says he is agnostic) and he was trying to convince me that “science doesn’t line up with the bible” etc. etc. (all this was going on in the middle of the dance floor and then we had to move to the side to hear each other better 😂 😂 😂 ) . And then he said “I would really love to get coffee and talk about this some more with you. Let me give you my number.” And I said… and I’m still laughing btw “give me your email.”


But he gave me his name and number in my contacts and told me to google his name and it would pop up since he’s a professor. Turns out he has a PhD in physics. lol

Anyways, I’m going to pray about whether or not I will send him an email (I probably will) and what I’ll send. 🙂 God is funny. Has a sense of humor for sure. But God knows I like to keep life interesting and so if He wants to use me in these small ways by witnessing to salseros on the dance floor, so be it. 😛




Anyway, I could sit here and write all day long (and I may write again later) but I gotta go read my bible & do my study and then go to church! And probably lunch with some peeps. Then CHILL at home. Yesterday was insane. I got up at 6am, friends came over at 7am, drove ~3 hours to the mountains… hiked…

went to a local brewery for lunch & got this hoppy pomegranate number 😛

Drove ~3 hours home, showered, changed, collaborated with friends

Left home at 9:45pm and drove to meet a friend

went to the club at 10:30pm

left club at 1:45am

Got home at 2:45 am

Slept 3-8.

Woke up like a boss (naturally)

Andddd 1 hour later and here we are!

Hahahaa so I imagine I’ll need a slight nap later. And for these ears to stop ringing please.

Happy Sunday everyone. I’ll definitely be typing more later.





hey everyone.

It’s Friday night around 7:30pm and I’m getting ready to go to work. I just packed for my hiking trip tomorrow. Some friends and I are going to hike in the Virginian mountains.

This is probably the last mountain I hiked. One of of the last few peaks from the Long Trail in Vermont. I started this trail in 2015 and hiked 252 miles of it. Last summer I went back and did the last 20 with my best friend Alexandra. <3

Tomorrow morning I’m setting off with four lovely ladies to do a four-mile loop that is partly on the Appalachian Trail. Should be some great views tomorrow. And the temperature is a high of only 65 degrees! YESSS I’m so excited. 🙂

I’ve missed the mountains

I’ve missed the woods

I’ve missed the sound of twigs breaking under me

of leaves crunchy

of pine needles muffling my steps

I’ve missed the earthy smell of fresh morning dew that covers the rocks, as steam rises from the bright morning sun

and quiet whisper of the leaves in the trees as a gust billows by slowly and softly

the bubbling brook pours over stones of all different colors and a water bug lands on the surface creating small ripples

each ripple cascades towards the edges of the stream where sweaty hikers have taken off their shoes and socks and dipped their feet in the water to cool off


So tomorrow it’ll be nice to go back out there again. Not that I’ve ever been there or here at all. It’s a first time experience. With a first time group coming together to scale a peak. Five women hiking in God’s beautiful creation. 😀

I’m bringing my tripod to take some legitimate pictures up top 😀 Maybe I’ll post some 😉




On another note. I’ve had some decisions to make regarding working and playing and resting/being responsible. I’m working tonight and REALLY wanted to go dancing last night and tonight but it ain’t gonna happen. Last night my plans fell through because my car broke down and I had to put it in the shop. Which was fine… Instead I got to spend time with cousins and friends which was really nice… and drive a fun rental car 😀 <3

Tonight I have work again and don’t wanna go to bed supah late because I’m hiking tomorrow. I should get up tomorrow at 6:00am because my friends are coming at 7:00am to leave for the trip. Then we’re driving 2.5 hours to get to the spot.

We won’t get home til …. 6pm I’m guessing. Crazy.

So naturally I wanna get home, take a shower, CHILL …. and then my friend has a bday party that I wanna go to.


Someone needs to work tomorrow night for my client. I am praying that someone I will call “P” will do the shift. I am not supposed to. It’s supposed to fall on another lady… but she overbooked herself and made other plans in the evening. Which is crazy, but not my fault!

Anyway. I guess I could do the shift if I did it ….. from 8:30-9:30. It’s just lamesauce cuz the lady we’re helping doesn’t like to go to bed super early… but it isn’t my fault if there’s nobody there to help her and I have other plans?!

Lord, let your will be done.


Y’all have a WONDERFUL Friday night and weekend. I’ma go head to work.

xxx <3 V


today was such an odd day!

I had to get a rental car:

It was a Ford EcoSport.

Interesting little car. It turns off everytime ya brake to save on gas and emissions.

Very eco-friendly/efficient. My friend was explaining to me tonight how newer cars are using much more efficient technologies these days, and how much gas it actually saves to cut off the car when chillin’ at a light or whatever. It used to be that it took more gas to turn the car on and off. Not the case anymore.

Anyway, I picked up this lil number this morning because my car decided not to turn on last night until my friend hit the starter with a hammer. When the car turned on after that, my friend determined that I would need to replace the starter. Turns out my battery was 5 years old as well.

Not too many repairs or too expensive. Thankfully I have a savings account for moments like this. God is good, and always provides all that I need.

I was trying to avoid getting a rental because I wanted to save money. I was hoping one of my frands would let me borrow a car. Nobody came thru. Also, another friend of mine said “why don’t you just get a rental”. I was like huh. Maybe I should.


Convenience is worth it. Not bothering multiple people or owing favors is worth it. Especially when I have savings…



I got tired last night and didn’t feel like finishing this post. So here I am this morning, with two minutes to spare before I go to work.

Hope y’all have a good Friday! I love Fridays because I get to do some reading and kinda resting. It’s a slower-paced day with this client. 🙂

I do have another client right after, but it’s doable. It’s not too much. Unlike Wednesdays, where I have stuff back-to-back. I gotta change that. I can really only change one shift… move it up like an hour or something. Or maybe 2 hours. That would be good. It would give me time to come up for air; rather than going from one energetic job to the next. When I say energetic I mean, of course, that have to be energetic. lol

Anyway. I’ll definitely write more later. I do wanna mention this though: I want to stop scheduling so many things one right after the next. I do it with social gatherings as well. I always want to go to all the parties and commit to too many things. Sometimes it’s nice, NICER than nice, to just go to one party and stay there all evening. Not go to 5 things in one day. I dunno why I over-commit like that. I guess I like to keep things interesting? Like to keep in relationship with lots of different people? Want to show each person that invites me to stuff that I value time with them and value my relationship with them?

Though perhaps I could show how I value them and care for them more by spending more time with each person. Perhaps on different days. hahaha

If my life was a garden and friends were one of the crops, I think the bed would be overflowing. And every gardener knows that if you plant things too close together they won’t grow efficiently and will choke each other out. I wanna have a few really strong, healthy, fruit-bearing plants. I want my relationships to grow and flourish, not be choked out by each other because I’m spreading myself thin.






rollin’ with the punches


is that the phrase? lol

6:36pm on Wednesday. I should be at church right now because I’ve been attending a 6-week Wednesday night prayer class.


My car wouldn’t start. I am THANKFUL though, because it didn’t start in MY driveway! I was out and about all day today, and it could have died at any one of the many places I was traveling to and from. But instead, God allowed it to die right in my driveway. My friend is on his way over to check it out tonight. I’m praying that it’s something simple!

Like a dead battery. All I know is dis. God allows or causes everything to happen for my good and for His glory. TBH I am TIRED and didn’t want to go to church tonight. So I was relieved that my car wouldn’t start in a way! It has given me more time to rest! Granted, my church is 1 mile away. But it takes energy to participate in something with other people. And it definitely takes effort to pray.

I get to be home now and chillax. I didn’t sleep a whole lot last night because I went salsa dancing and then to work… even though we were finished by 11:30pm… On Tuesday nights I usually just go dancing and don’t have work, but my cousin was sick so I covered her shift.

I timed it so that I could still go to bed when I normally do on Tuesday nights (around midnight)… but uhhh I kept waking up starting around 4:30am. SOo it wasn’t that great of a night of sleep. I did fall back asleep til 5:45ish but decided to just get up then. I didn’t have too bad of a day energy-wise but Wednesdays are usually draining anyway because I have work and then I teach a children’s bible study to ~12 2.5 year olds, and then have another shift right after. And then clean a little after that. It’s too much.

So that craziness coupled with a poor night of sleep left me feelin’ tiyad.

Hence my relief for being able to be home right now. And being able to write 🙂 <3

I tried to post yesterday and today but I didn’t finish the post yesterday, and today the post would not post! It “failed” for some reason. *shrug* Anyway, I’m hoping this one will post.

Sooooooo. This week I lost some keys (a keyring fell off my carabiner that holds my car keys and house key) to my client’s houses. Luckily, they’re being/have been replaced. 🙂

I can’t imagine that they keys are very far away though; that’s the thing. I had them on Sunday afternoon…. and then Sunday evening I did not. I went to lots of places on Sunday, but am pretty sure that I had them after all my goings-on. In which case they could only be in 1 place: in or right outside of my house. *sigh*

I’m just waiting at this point. Trying not to think about them, trying not to worry about them. After all, the important ones are being replaced. The other ones, I don’t need. I am thankful that it wasn’t my car key or house key! That could’ve jacked up my lyfe so much! But God is good. He takes care of His children!

These small everyday tests are slightly uncomfortable… but I am grateful to have them. I am learning, I am growing. I am learning to trust more. I am learning to lean on the Lord more. Trust in His timing. Trust in His ways.

It’s been a good week otherwise. Work has gone well. Bible study has gone well. I was BLESSED yesterday by a DELICIOUS seafood lunch with two sweet friends yesterday. And we made plans for a lil road trip together in November 🙂

Lord, thank you for sustaining me. Thank you for teaching me how to work more consistently and efficiently and not get burnt out. Lord Jesus thank you for teaching me how to worship and work while I wait on You. Thank you for widening my vision and helping me see past my situation and how your plans are so much greater than what I can imagine. Thank you for teaching me how to talk about hard things. Thank you for giving me boldness. Thank you for giving me such great relationships and friendships! Thank you for giving me dancing and excitement and a spirit of adventure! You are the perfect artist, author and creator. Lord I want to be like you!


Reminded me of dis Lecrae song. Ha oldie but goodie.


I’ma go read some before my friend gets here to check out da car.





singing His praises

I’m in love.

I kept thinking of times and locations I could wear this baby out and about today. It’s fleecy so I can’t wear it just anywhere or anytime because I’m in Virginia and it’s still in the 80s. Come on autumn!!! My girrrrrrrl.

I tried to wear it this morning at 6am when I was making coffee and doing dishes and moving about the laundry room and kitchen, but it was too hot.

It’s not just ahdorable, but it’s suuuuuuuuuuper soft. 🙂 <3 <3 <3

Surprisingly soft. And so dang cute!

Okay, that’s enough.

I was thinking about how eventually this sweatshirt infatuation is going to wear out. It’s not going to stay very enticing. Retail therapy keeps you coming back. But I don’t have a shopping problem, I don’t! LOL who am I convincing here.

But really, I don’t. I’ve had more expenditures than usual lately because I just moved and needed to get stuffs for my new place. Lamp, bins, fan, rope lighting (okay this was a “want” :P), wall decals (okay this too lol). And some other various items.

Time to chill now. No mo spending. Well, on unnecessary items anyway. I truly am blessed that I don’t have to think about $$. God has blessed me so so much and continues to as I entrust my funds to Him! It’s His money that He gave to me anyway… and He wants me to be a good steward of it. 🙂

Back to the concept of infatuation wearing off.

I’m glad God is not infatuated with me. He’s in love with me. He loves me SO much that He sent His son Jesus to die for me… so that I would be reconciled to Him. My sin was so great and I was so lost that Jesus actually laid down His life to show me what great love is. He gave Himself up for me so that I would have life.

God doesn’t tire of us. He doesn’t stop loving anyway because He doesn’t feel like loving us anymore. He doesn’t stop loving me when I continually mess up over and over again. He doesn’t stop loving me when I outright go against His word and His Holy Spirit and what He tells me to do.


More chances. More opportunities to serve Him. Each day is just that.

Father, thank you for my night of rest anoche. Thank you for Your constant provision. Thank you Lord for giving me time to read Your word and study it. Thank you for giving me wisdom to understand it and apply it. You illuminate Your Truth to me and peel the scales from my eyes so it becomes clear. I thank you for this gift

“Wait for the gift my Father promised” Acts 1:4b

After you were resurrected, You taught and ate, spent time with and prayed with your disciples. After forty days you told your early church to wait for the gift that God promised to send. Then, you ascended into heaven; and the angels told the disciples that one day you would come back the same way that you left.

Then your disciples and their families gathered together, prayed, and waited for ten days. On Pentecost (the 50th day after your resurrection) your Holy Spirit came down upon your people like “tongues of fire”. Now every believer would be indwelt with the Holy Spirit; the third member of the trinity, and God in full.





Lord, why is it that I forget Your Truth?

How could I forget that You are with me and in me always?

How do I brush You aside and think that I could choose a better way than the ways in which You direct me?

I guess I’m thick. Hard-headed. Weaker than I ever thought. More selfish, too.

Forgive me for running ahead of You and hoping You won’t notice. 

Forgive me for choosing garbage over You.

Forgive me for placing anything but You on the pedestal of my life, as if anything could take the place of You. 


“Praise the Lord

Praise the Lord, you his servants; praise the name of the Lord.

Let the name of the Lord be praised, both now and forevermore.

From the rising of the sun to the place where it sets, the name of the Lord is to be praised.

The Lord is exalted over all the nations, his glory above the heavens.

Who is like the Lord our God, the One who sits enthroned on high,

who stoops down to look on the heavens and the earth?

He raises the poor from the dust and lifts the needy from the ash heap; he seats them with princes, with the princes of his people.

He settles the childless woman in her home as a happy mother of children.

Praise the Lord.”

Psalm 113


His name is worthy to be praised!!!!!!!

Lord, please help me be a good steward of my time today. Give me focus and help me be intentional in all that I say and do and think

It’s all for you. Help me remember this Truth today; that it’s all for You.




Ps. Thank you for my cheetah sweatshirt. I love it. <3


and I’m excited.


I remember staying up til 2 or 3 in the morning every night chatting with people on AOL instant messenger (AIM). AIM was the bomb. Soooo much fun. It was fun because people were on it. It wouldn’t have been fun if nobody used it. All my friends would go home, log in and we’d talk to each other. Hahha sounds kinda sad. But it was the way of things.

My Monday night group is really fun too. And it’s because people are coming. And we’re laughing. And learning. Growing. We’re in a healthy place… and I’m thankful.

Laughing hard… I love laughing hard. So hard that your face hurts! I wish I kept track of how many times this has happened in my life in a little book that I could go back and read when I’m feeling down. Certain times and memories pop up every now & again which is always sweet. I love how certain words or phrases spark memories that make me bust out laughing. Is it bust or burst? I actually like both. 🙂

Each day is a gift. Today was a really good day. I was really productive and feel good about my accomplishments. I worked on organizing my music room today which was fulfilling. I put all my art supplies into a three-drawer organizer that I bought. <3 I also bought some LED rope lighting that I’ma hang up . I started to hanging it using those Command wall hooks but it looks harrrrrrrrible. lol I wanna line where the ceiling meets the wall…. I think that would look cool. I’m gonna YouTube how to do it myself and make it look clean. 🙂

Rope lights smell really weird btw. It’s not exactly a bad smell, but it isn’t a good one either. After I was working with those lights I had to wash my hands twice hahah

Projects come about randomly for me. This isn’t random because I just moved to a new place so organizing and decorating are things that come with the territory. But I KNOW that because I’m taking the time to set up this space, I’m going to use it more often. I’m building a foundation for the room to have lots of practical use. And I’m excited!

Some things happen slowly over time, and other things happen all at once. Tonight in my singles group we prepared a couple parables in Luke for next week’s study. One of them was about building a tower. The parable essentially says don’t take on the task of building a tower unless you know beforehand that you’re going to be able to finish it. The parable warned that if you don’t finish it, you’ll look like a fool. Jesus ends up saying at the end of the parable that to become a disciple of his means being willing to give up all we have.

Setting up camp in my new house seems like tower-building to me. I feel as though I’m preparing to really live here. Live and thrive. I’m setting up with some permanence. I didn’t feel like I could express myself like that in the last place I was in. This place feels much more like my own…. it’s hard to explain, but I am at peace. And so SO thankful!

I also am willing to take on Jesus’s challenge of giving up all that I have and all that I am for His kingdom work. I know there’s a lot of work to be done and I know that He’s already gone before me and has prepared me to do it. I know that His plans are better than my plans and His promises are always kept. I know that he has given my heart desires to do certain things and I believe that he WILL bring those things to fruition. So I’m waiting. Trusting and waiting.

Just realized the time. 10:38. Time for me to go to bed. I hope y’all sleep well. I hope y’all dream big dreams and entrust those dreams to God.

OH I’m trying out a new pillow tonight. It’s a bamboo memory foam pillow. I got it on sale at a store that gets random shipments from random places. I was SO surprised to see the bamboo memory foam pillows there because I’ve been looking to get one. Or at least try one. There’s a hoity-toityer (sp?) pillow I was thinking about buying but I might not have to now. We shall see!

God bless


Love you all! <3


I don’t know how to Saturday

It’s odd, really…

I think I like having Thursdays off better. Because then I don’t feel some obligation to be doing something. Thursday was a day that I didn’t make any plans. I protected it and used it to rest, pray, read, play guitar and sing, go for a walk, sleep long….

I guess I’ve done all of that today, but it was in lieu of hanging out with friends. I was supposed to have friends over today but I wasn’t feeling well. So I’ve been chillin’ all day long at home… drinking lots of fluids. But yeah I did sleep longer, did a load of laundry, vacuumed, read, cooked some chicken & mushrooms/broccoli in a garlic butter sauce <3

And it’s 5:22pm now. My roommate and her bae are making crab legs for dinner and asked if I wanted any. I do because I love crab with butter buuuut I’m not super hungry. I honestly think part of the reason why I feel blech is because I ate too much this week. I’ve gotten a LOT better at the overeating thing and have actually lost ~20 pounds since last year — PRAISE GOD! — but I have a ways to go. 20 more pounds and I will be thrilled!

But it isn’t about the number on the scale so much. It’s about a change of heart. It’s about a change in my relationship to food. Which I have!!!!!!!!!!!! I have learned self control. And it’s awesome. But here’s the thing guys. Self control continues to grow more and more as life goes on. It’s a fruit of the Holy Spirit. I guess I could think of it as one fruit getting riper and juicier and bigger and better on the vine. Or I could think of the tree of my life producing better and better fruit of self control each season. 🙂

I realize the tenacity of mind, body and spirit. They’re bound together and affect each other in every way.

A friend told me about a woman she knew who was “taking the easy way out” by getting some sort of surgery where they remove all her fat. It was like liposuction on steroids. I pointed out that the lady was bound to gain all the weight back, and then some, if she didn’t get to the root of the problem: she’s lacking in self control.

I truly am thankful for this change in myself. It’s taken a long time, and I’ve come a long way. I look forward to seeing greater changes as time goes on 😀

Overeating puts stress on the immune system and makes your body work harder to digest more. Eating the wrong kinds of foods- sugary ones especially- also lower one’s immunity. Not to mention drinking alcohol. I definitely split a bottle of wine with a friend Tuesday night… and Wednesday night this week! Hahah not that 2 glasses of wine is bad, but my body isn’t used to drinking because I hardly drink.

I also didn’t sleep super well on Wednesday night … I think because I had eaten too much. That after I went swimming at the pool and worked out a little harder than usual. Then I ended up drinking the wine and snacking quite a bit instead of eating real food. The combination of things kept me up and a little hot during the night. I woke up on Thursday feeling tired… Thursday was a relatively good day for eating and everything in general but I snacked more than usual and stayed up a bit late for me.

I woke up on Friday at 5a.m. with a sore-ish throat. I also didn’t feel like drinking my coffee which is a good indicator that something is wrong! haah I drank it anyway though. Which maybe didn’t help my case. I fasted mostly yesterday and just drank liquids and broth. But then I ate a little bit badly in the afternoon… my client wanted to get fast food and she always likes it when I get something. Haha it might sound silly but I would have felt bad if I didn’t get anything (this same scenario happened Wednesday but I actually didn’t get anything then). Anyways, I was already feeling ill and like my head was in the clouds by this time but eating certainly didn’t help.

I spent the rest of the day at home, laying around, trying to sleep! I missed a concert I was supposed to go to… And went to bed early.



What I learned is this:

OH! I forgot to mention that one of my clients had a cold on Friday and I was with her all day Thursday. I think she may have passed something on to me.


I continue to learn smaller portion sizes. I continue to learn not to drink that much alcohol. Drink water in between glasses. Every time. I’m a lightweight and don’t need a lot!

I learn that doing nothing at home is good and necessary sometimes, regardless of the day of the week. I learned that God wants to tell me and teach me things, and sometimes slowing me down physically is the way He does just that.

I learn.

I hope y’all enjoy your Saturday nights. I’m probably hunkering down and doing squat. Hhaah maybe I’ll watch a movie. I miss movies, kinda. I used to watch so much television and so many movies and it’s crazy that I hardly watch anything anymore.

Maybe I’ll do a bit more reading. Oh! I’ll take a shower. hahah big livin’ over here.

I’m okay with it.




Trusting and waiting

Something that I’ve been learning lately is that God doesn’t need my help.

He doesn’t need me! He wants me though, and He chooses to use me and His other children to do His work here. The keyword is “His”. His work is not my work. His kingdom is not my kingdom.

God alone knows the motives of my heart and the intentions I have with doing the things I choose to do. He chooses to bless me and use me and teach me day by day.

But guys

I don’t want to run ahead of God. If we’re on this journey together, which I know that we are, I want to walk WITH Him. I want to walk beside Him and let Him determine the speed. The direction. I want to be with Him during the challenging parts of the journey. I don’t want to be by myself forcing things to happen or trying to tackle something on my own strength. What’s the point in that? When we can abide in the power the Vine? De Vine. Divine hehe 🙂

Jesus is the vine and we are the branches. John 15:5

The other night I was mountain biking with three friends. We stopped by a beautiful bay and waded into the water. We stayed a bit too long and underestimated the amount of time it would take to get back. I take the blame! I was time-keeping that night, and didn’t factor in how much darker it would be in the woods on the trail as the sun was going down. Long story short, we ended up biking in the dark for ~30 minutes.

I was praying for my friends the entire ride back. I was praying that nobody would fly off the trail and hit a tree. That they wouldn’t hit a root and pull a muscle somewhere. That no tires would go flat. That no animals (or people!) would be standing stationary on the trail in the dark and one of us would plow into them. It was a hairy situation. We were in the dark and didn’t have a light.

I prayed, and everything was okay. God was looking out for us.

I was leading the pack though, and urging my friends to challenge themselves and bike a bit faster so it wouldn’t be completely dark before we got to the car. Well it was way too late for that hope because it was that dark after about 1/4 of the way back. I found myself biking at my natural speed and getting further and further from my friends. I had to slow down several times and stop three times long enough to hear their voices before I pressed on again.

When I slowed down it was because I couldn’t hear them anymore and was worried that something may have happened to one of them and they were stopped dealing with it in the dark. I thought about backtracking once but I was never that far from them so I didn’t. In theory, anyway. Since I couldn’t hear them, anything could have happened.

All of us were okay, and the evening ended relatively well; minus our on-ramp to the interstate being closed resulting in us having to drive an extra 25 minutes out of the way to get home 🙁

I learned a few things that night:

I learned to PUT MY DANG BIKE LIGHT BACK ON MY BIKE. It was in my car the whole time too *eye roll*

That reminds me, I told my friend I would order us both some bike lights. I gotta go do that.

Don’t rush ahead of the pack. A good leader stays with the pack; doesn’t get out of earshot. I guess I was thinking that I was motivating them to go faster, but instead it caused me slight grief as I questioned the state of their well-being.

Don’t rush ahead of God. This picture is an example of what I’ve been doing in my walk with Him. Rushing ahead hoping He will hurry up and meet me at the end of the road. Trying to get there faster. If I wait for God, we can journey together.

That night I was impatient, tired, suffering from slight indigestion, and disappointed in myself for not doing a better job of keeping the time.

I often feel disappointed in myself for not making better use of my time. But I also try to take on an unrealistic amount of things to do. Besides working, participating in church activities, preparing and leading bible studies, exercising and taking care of myself, and hanging out with friends or dancing… or resting… I have also been trying to produce multiple creative projects. I have been feeling bad that I haven’t completed them yet, and have attributed not finishing them to not being disciplined with my time; being too distracted, not being disciplined enough in other areas of my life like eating well, resting and sleeping enough, and spending time with the Lord enough. The reality is, I can’t always be doing doing doing going going going. I need to rest. And often. I need to take time to write and reflect and read, and sometimes stare outside my window and listen to the birds chirp.

I bought a scripture verse wall sticker for my new house that says:

“That person is like a tree planted by streams of water,
    which yields its fruit in season
and whose leaf does not wither—
    whatever they do prospers.” Psalm 1:3


In the translation on my wall it was supposed to say “you will yield your fruit in season” but when I was transferring it the “y”, “o” and half of the “u” stuck to something else and wouldn’t come off. So now it says:

“I will yield your fruit in season”.

I. As in God.

God will yield my fruit in season.

After all, He is the vine…… I am but a branch. Without the vine, the branch would not exist. The branch would dry up and become kindling for someone’s fireplace.

Resting in the knowledge that God must be the one that yields my fruit gives me hope and peace.

I don’t have to strive. I don’t have to and I won’t.

REST in God. Ask Him for guidance and direction on when to move. And He’ll let you know. But don’t run ahead. You might miss something important! Or tire yourself out. And why walk (or bike) it alone when you could be with Him?!

Hope this blesses you!




sweeter than honey

Psalm 119:103 “How sweet are your words to my taste, sweeter than honey to my mouth!”

Lord, your words are sweeter than honey. This is what I was just thinking as I sat down in my plushy leather armchair stationed by my two windows. My feet are elevated on its’ accompanying ottoman and my waist down to my shins is covered by a bohemian print fleece blanket. The sky is overcast, but still bright.

I just finished eating a “carb conscious” Elevation chocolate caramel peanut nougat bar (only 2 grams net carbs!) and drinking vanilla almond milk sweetened with stevia. Both sweet treats but not bad for me. haha! I gotta satisfy my sweet teeth, after all.

I look out the windows and see the leaves turning yellow and slightly orange and burnt orange. Autumn is just around the corner and I am excited. Today the weather is only a high of 78 degrees… a major improvement in my opinion, being from the Northeast 🙂

I am thankful for having this short window of quiet. About an hour and a half of quiet before I go back to work for a bit, then work on a writing project, then help my friend move. Oh how I want to go dancing tonight! But I probably won’t make it. Too much all at once.

A bird just flew by and reminded me of how my thoughts are so quick to stray away. I was thinking about dancing and how I might be able to make it work after helping my friend move. No, I think not. I’ll need more rest after today’s long day to prepare me for tomorrow’s long day. Yes, I’ll rest. And then dance soon <3

Psalm 119:109, 112 “Though I constantly take my life in my hands, I will not forget your law… My heart is set on keeping your decrees to the very end.”

These verses are too perfect. I have been talking about and praying about this phenomenon all week. Trying to force something, take it into my own hands, accomplish it on my own time instead of waiting on God’s timing.

I know I’m not the only one. Just yesterday a friend of mine posted on facebook that he is his own worst enemy when it comes to getting stuff done. I totally understand. He’s self-employed and doesn’t have anyone to keep him accountable. As an up and coming writer, video creator and blogger, I totally get it. Thankfully, it doesn’t take much effort at all for me to blog. I love it. It comes naturally to me. I have so many words that I don’t know what to do with them. Hence this random outpouring of thoughts called my blog. Welcome. Welcome & beware hahaah 😛

1 Peter 2:3 “Now that you have tasted that the Lord is good”

I HAVE tasted that the Lord is good. All of His ways. Yes. His way is THE way. To live and to be truly free. I love talking about my freedom in Him as I choose to live for Christ day to day. I had a long, raw conversation about freedom in Christ last night. I was explaining to a friend that there is true freedom when we are living our life God’s way. It’s not freeing to choose our own way because we don’t know what’s best for us. && it’s extremely difficult to choose God’s way, but it’s His power residing within us that gives us the freedom to choose His way. Before belonging to God and being His child, I couldn’t choose His way; I was a slave to sin.

All glory, honor and praise to King Jesus for rescuing me from my prison that I was once living.

Lord I was stumbling around in the dark and didn’t know where the exit was. I was fraternizing with the wrong crowd and didn’t know how bad things had gotten. When your light flooded my life I realized what I was “living” in. You pointed out the exit and said “you’re free to go, anytime”.

My chains fell off, my heart was free

I rose, went forth, and followed thee!

Amazing love, how can it be 

that thou my God wouldst die for me!”‘

Amazing Love How Can it Be? lyrics

The Lord is good. The Lord is sweet. There is nothing sweeter than life with Him.

Hope y’all are having a great Tuesday! Take a break from what you’re doing and enjoy His creation today 🙂