too much azucar


I think I ate a little too much chocolate cake. I just started to get angry and tired and feel a little sick. Didn’t take much tbh but I don’t do a lot of sugar these days. This reminds me of the time my cousin and I got Duck Donuts and I ate two and then told her I was mad.

Duck Donuts are made fresh in the store, hot off the press? belt? lol  and topped with icing amazingness fah days. That day I ate a maple bacon and a cookies and cream. 2 donuts. In a row. it was sugah sugah sugahhhhhhhhh RUSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I remember it like it was yesterday. Sickly sweet warm gooey melty donuts. 5 minutes later, pounding heart, fuzzy vision, sick feeling in my stomach and head creeping up. Anger.

Too much sugar is not good.

Or OH! OH!!! The time my friend threw an ice cream sundae party for her 2 year old son. All the neighbors and their kids came over and piled ridiculous amounts of ice cream, whipped cream, chocolate sauce, sprinkles, marshmallows, candies, caramel sauce, fudge sauce, maraschino cherries and faith into their bowls. The parents threw in the faith. Faith that their kids would survive the bowls of ice cream and come out alive and strong on the other side. How wrong they were. How so very wrong.

Ps. I should be asleep right now, FYI, so if this post is drab or enigmatic, that is why. Also, I’m an enigma as it is, and this is a free association thought train running wildly down the tracks, headed for God knows where.

So the kiddos ate the sundaes. And they started running all over the yard. Up the ladder and down the slide. At full speed towards the slip and slide.

At first it was funny. Fun. Cute. Until the chaos ensued.




8 year olds start beating up on 3 year olds.

Kids are pushed to the ground.


First one kid. Then two. Then three. Then we’ve got about 7 crying toddlers.

It was nerve-wracking. My head was splitting and I started looking around for alcohol. I found a beer and cracked it open.

“Never again!” said my friend as her yard pulsed with the crying energies of 11 babies.

Half of them were not babies by the way. But that’s what excess sugar will do to you apparently. Turn you into a crying little baby.


I’m waiting for you btw. Where are you?

I was supposed to stop eating at 7:30pm but I was still caking it up after 10. That is because I always bring dessert to one of the ladies I take care of on Monday nights after I get out of bible study. Tonight was the famous chocolate cake that we both love so much. But I had already eaten cake. And then I gave her cake. So I figured I’ll have more cake. That was a mistake.

A cake mistake.

A big fat cake mistake? I think so.

It’s okay though, I’m feeling much better.

And now I’m going to focus my energies outside of my self and my mind and my desires and aspirations and what I think I want. I’m going to serve my friend. I’m going to be present where I am and trust in the Lord to meet my needs. To fill me and satisfy me. I’m going to seek His kingdom and His righteousness first and all these other things will be added.

God knows when I’ll get out of work. 



Outta work, time for bed.




There aren’t many things worse than when you’re itching to go on an adventure or do something incredible but you can’t because your physical body is sick. I’m one of those people who tends to get sick more than other people… It’s the unfortunate combination of (1) a weak immune system mixed with (2) the inability to eat small amounts of sugar mixed with (3) having the capacity to spread myself thin like too little butter over too much bread mixed with (4) fate.

I’ve gotten better at avoiding being sick over the years but that inevitable cold Creeps in every few months or every so often. Today is February 8th and it’s been about 3 months since I was last sick with a small head cold. The last time I was sick for a solid week was at the end of September and the beginning of October when I moved from one apartment to the next, started a new job and started taking care of seven or eight little toddlers every week. Being around children that young is a sure-fire way of getting ill but the Lord has protected me ever since for the most part.

Unfortunately there are still other factors that I can control that helps me to stay well but I haven’t gotten smart enough to avoid them completely. One of my downfalls is eating too much sugar which is why I am doing a 21-day sugar detox currently. I am on day 11 right now and things have been going pretty well. For the first 7 days I only consumed 55 grams of sugar give or take a couple of grams and the last 4 days I have tried to be sugar-free. There was one instance the other night where a couple of chocolate caramels made their way onto my plate without me being able to do anything about it so I’m going to let that slide… But for the most part I have been sugar free and it is definitely not been fun. I have had a headache, fatigue and worst of all I think these cold symptoms have something to do with the detoxing effect.

You see, I have never taken a legitimate break from sugar in my entire life. I can remember being 4 years old and robbing the cookie jar as soon as my mother went outside and left me alone in the house. After that I have been known to consume large quantities of sugar every few days and also replace regular meals with a large portion of dessert justifying it because I didn’t really eat a meal so then I could obviously have a giant bowl of ice cream with a brownie on top with a side of three cookies and chocolate syrup and sprinkles and caramel and extra sugar on the side.

But for real, I am not used to not eating sugar and I am very thankful that I’m able to do this detox. I just hope it creates a rift between sugar and I that makes me not even crave the stuff. Whoever says that sugar is not on the same level as other drugs hasn’t suffered with a sugar addiction before. I see this seriously now but for a long time I have joked about it saying that I have sweet teeth and I love dessert and things to that effect. And all that stuff is true… But what is also true is that sugar has led to overeating and weight gain and keeping on weight that keeps me lethargic, makes me unhappy, and weakens my immune system all the same time. So I’m thinking if I can cut this tie with my good friend sugar once and for all I will be able to avoid some of these things for good. I’m not saying I believe that I’m never going to get another cold in my whole life once I stop eating a lot of sugar but I know that it is definitely a factor that I have some control over. Nor am I saying that I’m never going to eat sugar again… I believe that God gave me the gift of self control and it is my desire to exercise that self control over every area of my life including eating. I want to be able to enjoy sugar and dessert in small quantities every so often and I don’t want to give it up for good. But this detox is good for me in the way that my mind won’t automatically start thinking about sweets every time I am finished eating. It might take more than 21 days for this to happen, especially because the first seven I wasn’t completely sugar-free… But at least it’s a start!

Have you detoxed from sugar before? Are you a sugar addict? Post your comments below!

Love you all!