it’s almost 1 am but I just have to tell you
I’ve been watching for you out my window.
ever since you went by that one day.
and i waved.
and you waved back
but after i waved
i ducked down and hid underneath my windowsill
and your hair stuck out from beneath your hat
and your smile remained unfamiliar to me
but your wave stayed with me all these years and I hugged it like a children hugs his favorite blanket
you didn’t know who I was but probably had an idea
and that wave felt so brave but my ducking negated the bravery I think
and now many many moons later, I watch for you again
but you aren’t the same person
I’m in a new place, you see
and you don’t live in this place
but someone just like you does.
someone with potential
so I watch for you and wait for you and recently you were around
though not for very long
and I didn’t do my best to ensure you stayed. but that’s not my job
and in this situation: what willl be willl be.
good night <3