-goodness, faithfulness and provision of God. I can’t even being to write everything He has done for me.
-vision of the future and what’s to come!
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I woke up feeling excited this morning. Excited about getting some stuff done. Excited about making some plans. About getting outside on this beautiful day. Excited about future prospects and opportunities. About changes. About new beginnings. About starting fresh.
Thank you Lord. For teaching me.
You are not done yet. The good work that you begun in me WILL be perfected.
I look around and see your provision. Everything I see has been given to me! Thank you for filling my life with so much goodness.
Your goodness pours out like sweet honeysuckle
Knowing you is so sweet. Knowing the depth of your love and care and provision is incredible. It’s one thing to say the truth with words; it’s another to believe it in one’s heart.
You are who you say you are.
Creator
What an artist… what a story-teller. An author. What a dreamer, a visionary, a poet. What a romantic. A comedian. An inspirer. You give hope and inspiration to everyone near to you because you embody hope.
I think back to before I knew you and consider the direction of my life. I’m not sure what exactly I was striving for or why, but it probably had to do with acceptance. I wanted acceptance and I wanted love. But I was looking for it from people. And now I know where it’s found.
You are love. Love is found in you.
We love because you first loved us.
I can’t quite put my finger on why. Why you love us. But I know partially. It’s because you created us, and you call us your children. You want to pour yourself out before us and give us yourself. You already fully did it once, a long many years ago. But I find that you are constantly pouring yourself out, in goodness, love and mercy.
I love the life I am living with you. You fight my battles through me. I only walk forward in obedience. You’ve taught me a lot, and I know I have so much more to learn. But I have learned this:
-to listen for your voice
-to give you the glory
-to start my sentences with “but God…”
because I know these to be true:
-you really do know everything, see everything, and are sovereign over everything
-you really do work all things together for my good
-you really do love and care about me… even when it may not seem like it to the world. If my circumstances are troublesome. It’s easy for the world to say “where is your God now?”
But I know where you are. I know that you’re with me. And NOTHING can separate me from your love.
“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
Thank you. Thank you so much. I know that you heard me and answered. After all this time, which is like a blink to you, you answered. You gave me a reply. You protected me and guided me. You brought me to this point, to this place. You’re so full of mercy and so full of grace. All other things my mind can erase. Til there is only you. Til all I see is you, and all I know is you. I know you to be true. I know you to save. Your word is the only thing that staves off my hunger and thirst. I yearn for you and you fill me up.
I take a breath and gasp no more. I look over to my bedroom door. I’m thankful. I know I’m here because of you. I’m thankful. Thankful. Thankful. Thankful.
You have made me so free. Not carefree, because you taught me to care. But you teach me what to care about and how to care. You give me the tools and give me the wisdom and then you coach me through it. You’re so personal and present… Just what I’m looking for. Just what I always am asking for. Thank you for your attentiveness to me.
Thankful. There’s not a single place I would rather be than here with you. Father. Thank you for meeting me in this place.
As I was turning the key to the top lock on the door to my garage
that I have a top lock
and a door to a garage.
The garage is part of a house, where I have a room. And a bathroom. And a living room. And an extra room for music and art stuff.
And I live near all of my endeavors, and near many of my people.
I have parking right outside.
I have a working car.
I have enough food, clothing, income.
And it was all given to me.
This life that I inhabit is so uniquely different than anything I would have ever expected.
Who said “expect the unexpected” anyway?! Well, they were right.
I picture things going a certain way and am always surprised to find out that they ain’t gonna go that way AT all. hahaha
*shrug*
And then out of seemingly nowhere my world is flipped in the best way possible.
Like me, moving to Virginia. And starting care-giving. And taking on more vigorous forms of it. And paying no rent to no rent to low rent to still low rent, to even lower rent for a better place.
It’s been absurd. All I can say is this:
God. Is. Good.
He cares for me. He says don’t worry about food, clothing, shelter. I GOTchu.Â
He always has. And He always will.
I am taken care of.
And He leads me and guides me in the Truth. And it feels SO good. I am SO thankful.
