I’m headed to bed in a minute. Right after I get my laundries from the dryer. Or maybe I’ll wait til the morning to do that hehe

It’s just so far awayyyyy

All the way upstairs and at the other end of the house. #lazy

And it’s 11pm and it’s been a long day! I got up at 6:40 today. It’s Sunday, and I had to be at church early to sing! Also, before church I went to my friend’s house to take care of her dogs. Soo there’s that!

NEW YEAR’S RESOLUTION IS *still* TO DO LESS. To rest more. Idk if I even posted about that yet. But I should.

This post is now about resting.

I want to embrace my humanity. I want to embrace God’s design for my body. It is not limitless. I am very much human and require much rest! Much more than I think necessary or would like to have.

I always be wanting to runrunrunrunrunrunrun around all the time and nevah rest. It’s so dang obnoxious! I’m hardly ever at home! Makes my head spin. But I schedule myself so so much so I don’t spin around inside my head. Or at least that’s what it seems like I’ve done.

I’ve been running for years. It’s time to slow down. It’s time to do less. I used to live with a family where I had kindof a mother figure who impeded my plans all the time. And at the time, I wasn’t grateful for her doing that. But now, I see how it was good for me and how I tend to do too much.

But I know I will find freedom in resting more. I won’t be so dang tired all the time. Today I was at my aunt and uncle’s house and my aunt told me that she had a word for this year: it’s “freedom”. Freedom.

Freedom. We would all like to be free, I think. Free from the chains that bind us to whatever addiction we have. Stress, anxiety, numbing, running. Drowning ourselves in whatever capacity we know how to so we can avoid the pain and suffering and conflict that this life brings. But God wants us to go through the hard times.

And He wants us to know that He’s right here with us!

Romans 5:3-5 are such important verses:

Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.”

Suffering produces hope. It challenges me to persevere. It forms my character into a more resilient, humble, understanding one. It gives me hope that the best is yet to come.

God’s plan for my life is in action and I can rest in knowing that He is taking care of me, and He equips me for every trial that He allows me to go through.

My problem is remembering Him. Remembering to take all my requests to Him in prayer. Prayer is talking to God. That’s what we teach the children at Bible Study Fellowship. There’s a song called “What is prayer”, and the lyrics are simply: “what is prayer, what is prayer? Prayer is talking to God”.

Have you talked to God lately? About your trials? Sufferings? Blessings? Gratitude? Requests? Doubts? Fears? Complaints?

He’s your Father and He cares about you and your concerns. And He hears His children. He hears and he listens. Listening is different from hearing. Listening is concerned with what the person is saying. Listeners respond thoughtfully. Even if the response is simply to acknowledge what the person is saying and let them know they’re heard. We don’t always need to respond with wordy words.

And on that note, my friends, I am off to dreamland. I may swim in the morning before work, but it’s going to be less than 20 degrees so we’ll see.


xxx <3


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