it never seems to line up with our timing. We hope and wish and dream of something to go or be like we want it to, and God withholds it or changes it. And then He presents something seemingly foreign to us and we don’t think we’re ready or don’t know if we even wanted that thing in the first place.

Trusting in God and His timing is a scary concept. It’s a scary thought. It’s trusting in things unseen. But we know that we can trust God, because he is Faithful. Faithful is His name. He is the Promise-keeper and always keeps His word. He is true to His promises. And He promises us in His word that He will take care of us and bring us, a good work, to completion.

That means giving us things that we don’t necessarily want (at first).

That means taking things away that we think we need

That means withholding from us things that we feel ready for, and desire.

God knows best. His thoughts are so much higher than our thoughts. I freely say, I do NOT choose well for myself. It’s pathetic, really. The amount of things that I think are good for me, think that I need, or things I just mindlessly do. Things that I say I will never do again, or things that I say no to one day, and yes to the next.

The law of sin wages war against my soul every day. Every day is a dying to self. Every day is picking up my cross and following Christ. And some days I carry the cross successfully. I carry it far, and without much struggle. Other days I can’t seem to lift the cross of the ground. I manage to drag it a few feet, before it crushes me underneath the weight of itself. Those are the days that I try to do things my own way, in my own time.

Lord, please forgive me for trying to do things my own way. Forgive me for not trusting you enough. Forgive me for taking my eyes off of you and choosing to focus on the wind and the waves and not Jesus himself. Forgive me for seeking the things first instead of the kingdom first. Help me want You above all. Help me seek you. Give me strength and endurance while I wait. Help me worship while I wait. Help me work while I wait. Help me worship while I work. 

Waiting. Working. Worshiping. This is what all believers must do. God has given us each a task; the time we will spend doing whatever that task is is only known by God. And we must be grateful. We must thank Him. We must trust Him.

Thank you Lord for keeping your eyes on me and helping me propel forward. Thank you for never giving up on me. For giving me the trails necessary to help me die to self, and to set me free from sin and myself.

Your timing is impeccable. Absolutely, divinely perfect. Like you. <3

xxx

V