decaf chronicles

I’ve been told I should switch to decaf. When my neurotic mind is racing at 1.4 light years per second and the words coming out of my mouth can barely keep up.

Or when I’m going to meet somebody and end up word-vomiting all over them before we even say hello or hug.

Or when I was at a party playing a game where you have to shout the name of a Christmas song when your teammate is sounding it out and I turn the sentence-long song title into a single garbled word. “Rudolph the Red-nosed Reindeer” became “Roo-doo-roo-doo”.

Slow. Down.

Living in a constant state of planning. Futuristic. Thinking ahead. Overthinking. How much of this is related to caffeine? Honestly, I don’t know. Caffeine gives some people jitters and makes them think quickly. Now that I’m NOT having caffeine I am experiencing these symptoms as well as many others.

Withdrawal symptoms.

This isn’t the first time I’ve kissed my friend Caffeine goodbye. This goodbye is longer and more drawn out there. Not entirely cold-turkey is what I’m trying to say. But it’s still been pretty cold. I could have weened off slowly. Have a quarter less coffee than normal. And then a half. And then cut back another quarter.

Day 1. But instead, I stopped drinking it for a day.

Day 2. Woke up with a major splitting headache. Drank some coffee.

Day 3. No coffee. Foggy head.

Day 4. Had some caffeinated tea. Much less caffeine content than what I’m used to.

Day 5. Same as day four.

Day 6. Tea, and I caved at 4pm and had one small cup of coffee. And then some black tea. *facepalm*

Day 7. No cofffee, but an entire bottle of wine. Over the course of 9 hours people!!! Nbd

Day 8. Nada

Day 9. This is today. Aaaand I kinda have a head cold. And lethargy. And brain fog. This could also have to do with the fact that I didn’t sleep as much as I should this past weekend. I often times get colds when I get run down. Also, that sugary popcorn I ate a few days ago weakened my immune system. I’m WEAK.

But His strength is made perfect in my weakness 😉

I was working outside today raking leaves for an hour and I had to leave work early cuz I wasn’t feeling well. My boss was like “uhh, are you okay?? Maybe you should go get yourself a cup of coffee.”



The point of me quitting, btw, is so that I’m not addicted to anything. I don’t want to be dependent on coffee for my dang eyes to open. I don’t think it’s really helping me with anything if I have it every freakin’ day. Clearly it’s hindering because then when I DON’T have it, I trip. Hard. I stumble. But I don’t fall. I stumble, but don’t fall. Though I do feel close to falling. Asleep, for one. But also, I don’t want to get siiiick from this.

It didn’t help to Google caffeine withdrawal symptoms. Some crazy coffee fanatics listed off all sorts of scary things that can happen from quitting caffeine including tremors, anxiety, depression, and flu-like symptoms. I don’t have tremors, but I have been feeling rather anxious, and slightly depressed because of my flu-like symptoms. Curses!!!!!!!!!

So now I’m going to try to sleep this thing off. And maybe get some dang caffeine when I wake up so I can go salsa dancing tonight. Am I nuts? Lol don’t answer that. I mean, I’m not giving up on my decaf endeavors. But if I grab a LEETLE caffeine to get me thru the evening…………………………………….

ohmigoodness. I feel like I’m being super inwardly focused rn

This is not okay. Lord forgive me. I should be working on my BOOK right now. Will I ever finish that thing. Sigh.

Okay I have rambled for long enough.

Have you ever quit drinking coffee? What happened?



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