With words. So I’m back here again, for the second time today.

It’s just one of those days where I am trying to deal. All I can think about is food and all I want to do is eat and cry. I love being a woman. Haha NOT

But this is all part of the life that God ordained me for! He knew I would be feeling this way! And He has offered some ways out.

1. Prayer. So Lord, I pray to you right now.
2. His Word. I should crack open the bible right now too.
3. Other people. Perhaps I should serve somebody else right now instead of freakin’ wallowing in my self-pity.
4. Creation. It’s too hot to go outside. But God created authors and filmmakers and designers for a reason. There’s gotta be something in His creation to focus my energy on.

It’s funny because I say I will write books and play music and make videos if I had time. And here I am, with time. And I’m not doing the things that I say I would be doing. I am chained to the house where I work and have nothing but time. And then Satan freakin’ tries to distract me all day from doing those things. And he has kinda succeeded today. I did do some writing earlier which is good, and did play a little music actually. Okay, never mind, I do do the things that I say I will. But not as much as I think I will. My attention span lasts between 30 and 45 minutes and then I tire of whatever I’m doing, so there’s that.

I’m going to work on my songs soon. I should type them up and make chord and lyric sheets. And print them out and put them in a binder. And practice them, memorize them, and record them.

Yes. I should. Okay. I’m going to try to do that now. Not letting Satan distract me anymore.

Not going to sit here and be angry and depressed anymore. I’m a woman that God created and I choose to use the gifts that He gave me for His kingdom. To serve and glorify Him and spread His message of love!

Today I choose to not believe lies. That’s right. No lies today, Satan. No lies.

xoxo <3

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